DIARY OF A 21ST CENTURY MYSTIC:Given that I label myself a ‘mystic’, some of you might be surprised to learn that I have little interest in 2012 doomsday prophecies. I wrote something about this on my old blog in July, 2010, and stated that prophecies of future hells and paradises are mostly projections of the human mind, which tends to be suffused with the fear of death and suffering – or ways to escape it.
That’s why I haven’t been paying any attention at all to any recent media stories on the subject. And it is also why I have been just a little shocked to discover that I was kind of wrong about all that. So, the bad news is that the world is ending, and there is not a thing you can do about it.
Okay, perhaps I should have written that “a phase of psycho-spiritual evolution is shifting.” And I suppose that does make just a bit of a difference, because we are still going to be around to see what happens next (touch wood).
It was about a month ago that I noticed that there was quite a big shift in my dreams and visions, and that some of the psychic energy around me was getting just a little weird. That is what has led to change my mind about these Mayan prophecies. Mind you I was a little slow on the uptake. There was a stream of visions and symbols about Mexico. In the most recent I saw street sign with that very county’s name written upon it. Even that obvious, ahem, sign, didn’t register. It was the next day when I saw a reference to the Mayan 2012 prophecy on TV that it suddenly clicked. Mayan civilsation extended through many areas of Central America and Mexico.
I now believe that there is a shift in consciousness taking place. Part of this will mean that certain latent individual and collective consciousness fields will reverberate at this time. If you have a strong connection to your own psyche you should notice strong feelings, dreams, visions and perhaps the odd ‘energy’ event. An energy event will be a sense of some energy moving through you, possibly kundalini, resonance in the crown, heart and/or third eye chakras. You might feel extremely tired, irritable or scared for little apparent reason. This is also exacerbated by the fact that in Western countries it is Christmas time, and this tends to be a rather disturbed time for projections of psychic energy amongst family members and ancestors).
I won’t go into how to deal with such energies. There are ways to do, so, but it is beyond the scope of this post. Just relax in the knowledge most of this energy will pass in time. If you have your own ways of dealing with it, it’s probably a good time to do whatever you need to do.
In the rest of this post I am going to focus upon the first of a series of very significant dreams I have had during this period (I’ll refer to some of the others in later entries). This dream was centred upon the idea of a shift – or potential shift – in consciousness. I spoke about this one in a recent D21CM video, but below is the full dream as I recorded it in my dream diary. I wrote it down in the middle of the night, as soon as I awoke after the dream. It involved Leonard Jacobson, who is a spiritual teacher who has greatly influenced my spiritual practice.
I was standing by an indoor pool, on the right side. The pool was small, about twenty metres from side to side. It was roughly a circular shape, but not perfectly symmetrical. I saw that Leonard Jacobson was in the water inviting others to come in. There were about a dozen others in the water with him. It seemed peaceful and relaxing in there, as if the waters were nourishing the souls of those within. The pool was not deep, and I knew it was warm because some kind of steam was coming from its surface, as if the waters were primeval. There seemed to be tropical plants around the outside of the pool. I was standing there, resisting climbing in. But Leonard was still gently inviting. There was some kind of song I could hear, and we had to join in if we went into the pool.
I realised I was resisting. But I just decided to let go and began to climb into the pool. As I did I noticed that there were many others who had not entered the pool. These were the people who had not made the choice to surrender. They were sitting down on the stone floor in front of the pool in rows, hunched over, heads down as if scared, their backs facing the pool. It seemed as if their eyes were closed.
I was worried as I climbed in, as I had to be naked and knew the others would see me. There were some women in there too. One woman was inviting me in, as if she wanted me to be there. I think she was a black woman.
When I got in I started singing too. There was a tall man there. He was different from me, his energy more rustic or something, like a typical Aussie guy. He was judging me. He said something like “You think you are better than us?” Then I just went up to him, and even though it was repulsive to some degree (resistance), I put my arms round him and embraced him. Then I think we kissed, or put our faces together. He was surprised, resisting. But he was forced to see that it was he who was “lagging behind”, making judgments about me.
Leonard was gently chastising people, saying they had not yet let go. He was talking about the karma, that certain peoples and land masses had not let go and embraced “the lesson”. Then, in my mind’s eye I saw two land masses above us, a kind of map – Australia and Greenland, right beside each other. Leonard said one mass had resisted the invitation to consciousness, and was now going to require some time of integration, where there would be suffering or something like that. I think he was talking about Australia, but this could have been about the whole earth.
We were allowed to ask a question in the pool. I asked about the origins of life on earth. Till that point I had been standing up in the water, which was about waist-deep. Then I let go, falling backwards into the water my face dropping below the surface; and as my head fell backwards I was suddenly engulfed by a great light. I knew from my previous spiritual experiences that this was a kind of ‘enlightenment’ or non-duel experience, so I simply relaxed with it. I then found myself leaving my body, or heading towards a great light, taken away from Earth. I was drawn into the light and I just let go. It was joyful, but a little scary. I became aware of another planet, it seemed much bigger than the Earth; it was green and foggy and there was lots of water. Somehow this was linked to life on Earth. Maybe it was the Earth’s past (but that is a post-dream analysis).
Then suddenly I was back in with the others in the pool. I told someone I had been to a place to see the origins of the Earth. I think I was telling Leonard. But I didn’t really understand what I had seen.
At that point I awoke. Most of this dream is easy to understand. Leonard Jacobson represents a higher spiritual consciousness, and the letting go that is required to allow it to flourish. The pool is warm and relaxed, much like the act of letting go itself. This dream told me something about the karma of groups. Groups collectively resist stuff (the people looking away from the pool, hunched over). When this happens they have to play out the story again, till they ‘get the lesson’. That is collective ‘karma’. There can be suffering in this learning. But the groups must make up their minds. They are free to choose – even though the choosing is, paradoxically, unconscious.
The map of Greenland and Australia I think symbolised two polarities. They are the two biggest islands in the world, one very cold, the other dry and mostly hot. I can’t be sure, but my sense is that Australia has to ‘get’ something here. I suspect that the two land masses also symbolized the split in the modern mind, the battle between ‘rational’ and ‘intuitive’ cognition (to put is simplistically).
There was obvious personal significance in the dream for me, too. Part of me has been ‘in two minds’ about letting go at a deeper level, but now it appears I am steeping more into the deep end of the pool, so to speak. When I awoke, I also sensed that the dream suggested that there was a role in this greater civilizational drama for me, probably to do with Australia. It seems this may be a kind of ‘leadership’ role – or perhaps ‘guidance’ is the better term. I have checked this, and this interpretation appears to be correct.
But in the end, the journey of the mystic cannot be founded in some promised future, but in the peace of presence.
This has not been as easy time for me these past few months, and there have been genuine issues that I have needed to address. These have to do with personal doubts and fears about my own abilities, including my ability to be able to act out in the real world what I appear to be being asked to do by Spirit. There is a fear of failure and rejection.
Most of all there is the simple doubt about the intuitive mind and what its ‘messages’; and trusting in a process which, in truth, I have only a small conscious awareness of. And that is often the way for the mystic.
Just two weeks ago I caught a bad bug, and was quite sick for a half a week or so. This seemed to be the culmination of this rather difficult period. My spiritual guidance has been helpful, encouraging even. It has been during this time, where my own spirits have been low at times, that a song has kept coming to me during sleep and meditation.
Don’t you worry baby,
Heaven’s got a plan for you
To be honest, I don’t even know who sings the song. But it did help me to relax and simply allow the process to unfold, unpleasant as some aspects of it were (and still are).
For whatever reason, I have had to deal with quite a lot of dark energy in this lifetime. I know that it has to do with energies that I have encountered during my personal biography; energies that move through my ancestral lines; and seemingly there are also personal karmic energies which have not quite resolved themselves from past lives. The truth is I don’t know all the details (although I do know plenty – maybe more than is good for me!). I simply accept that this is just my journey. It is what “God” has asked me to do. So for me it is simply one day at a time, and I have to deal with whatever is on my plate when I get up in the morning.
The reasons I mention this are twofold. Firstly, I have had to deal with some of this dark energy in the past few weeks. Secondly, very shortly I am going to mention one of these dark energy issues – and the graphic dream that helped me clarify it – in an upcoming entry of Diary of a 21st Century Mystic. I think you might find it interesting.
Meanwhile, stay relaxed and make quiet time to connect with your inner world during these ‘end times’.